I’d really love to break your heart

I feel good; fulfilled; the way Lombardi positioned.
Hard work and solid internal results and validation.
Things seem easier when I’ve ticked the boxes I’ve created for myself

Memories.
Its been almost four years to the day.

I knew you’d hurt.

But maybe not this much.

I feel less emotional today;

all in the black.

at my desk.

in control.

sorting emails into folders helps. as does ignoring temptresses.

as does early morning focus and mindset.

I went through the mixer and back today.

I sleep for about three hours.
Waking up on the point of tears.
People want my time.
I disappoint each and every one.
I cant open up. Msgs keep coming in. Each turns a screw. I dont know what to do.

There’s bikes and there’s kids.
Young.
Fearless.
One walks past me without an ear.
He’s out there living his dreams.
I’m out here thinking about mine.
Everything about him makes me think, makes me regret, makes me jealous